When you've got time to read bullshit, at least read GOOD bullshit.

I'm only really happy when I'm productive, otherwise I feel REALLY guilty for being lazy, even though it's technically my right and I shouldn't feel lazy for taking a break... for a long time...

Anyway, I have these projects I've started and am thinking about starting, but I just can't bring myself to keep doing them or start them. Lately I haven't been feeling well, which I've been using as an excuse. I'm not even sure anymore if I don't feel well because my body is just trying to get me to make excuses or if I really just don't feel well.

And although I have time, it's spread out. I have about 2 hours after work to come home, take care of cat, change out of my grown-up, work clothes, do the dishes, check my email and such, and sometimes do laundry before I have to pick up Tim and start thinking about dinner. But then I start to feel not that great and think maybe I should hold off on working out. Or I've been to Biolife that day and want to wait until at least 2 hours afterwards to make sure my "wound" is healed enough to move it all around without the bandage. And by the time I'm "able" to work out, I've either become super lazy, still don't feel well, am wrapped up in video games, or it's too late since one is supposed to leave 2 hours after exercising before going to bed.

But all in all, I think I'm really just making excuses. Maybe I'm bummed that I haven't lost the weight I've been wanting to lose. But then again, if I got off my ass and stopped eating pizza and homemade chicken friend rice (sooooooooooooo good!!), I could lose that weight and look how I wish to look. I just need to stop being lazy. But it's hard to choose exercise when you have full seasons of Scrubs laying around and Tim keeps mentioning how I could play video games instead. SUCH A HARD CHOICE!

But to my defense, I do eat mostly fruit and vegetables for lunch. Go me!

And why is it that I can only sing well once in awhile? I don't get that at all.

So far being a grown up is pretty great. I'm learning new things, working lots, and sitting in real people meetings! I start at 8am this week and next, and even though I get 8 hours of sleep a night, it's still really hard to get up in the morning.

I'm eating well and even taking iron tablets that give me 361% of my daily iron, making my total daily iron consumption greater than 650% of what's recommended. But when I go to Biolife I'm still just making the minimum iron requirements. This could be why it's so hard for me to get up in the morning. And I suppose it's possible that my low iron could be due to my exercising. But exercising shouldn't lower my iron level nearly that much. Once I get insurance I suppose I'll go to the doctor and check it out.

Tim and I are playing Ninja Amy. And I'm winning! Woo!

Someone on the Mining Journal jobs website is looking for a Part-Time Individual. I don't know about anyone else, but I'm an individual all the time. I don't know if I can just stop being an individual for most of the time. Oh wait, yes I can. I just have to wear Axe body spray, Abercrombie and Fitch clothes, and listen to popular music while smoking a cigarette. OH BURN ON NO ONE IN PARTICULAR!

I'm restarting my diet. Losing 10 pounds the first time around was great and I feel and look much better, but some of my favorite clothes don't fit. This wouldn't matter to me much if they weren't business casual, which I need for my new job. So losing more weight would allow me to fit into those clothes, saving me money on new clothes. And I'd feel even better all around. Plus it'll be a lot easier this time around since I won't be working at the gas station any more where they bake fresh cookies, danishes, and cinnamon rolls every day and I'm not surrounded by enticing junk food. I'm expecting these next 10 pounds to drop off in no more than 10 weeks. Which means I'll be my ideal weight before I begin working full-time, which is great because my exercise might drop a bit once I start that.

I'm excited!

I GOT THE JOB!! WOO!! I start the 16th! I be t3h excited!

Or so Bobby D told me.

So, I "just" got back from my SECOND INTERVIEW for Lasco. I say "just" because I've already changed out of my interview outfit and written thank you notes to the President/CEO and Senior Vice President of the company, who were at the interview. I wonder who the Junior Vice President is...

Anyhoo, the PRESIDENT kept saying how very impressive my accomplishments, resume, and volunteer activities were!! His only concern seemed to be about me staying at a job that isn't all technical with no programming and whatnot. I assured him that the office atmosphere and my ability to help people is more important to me than performing technical tasks all day. If I really want to stay into programming (which I really do), I can do it on my own time, which I probably will.

There were only 2 of us called in for SECOND INTERVIEWS! I have a 50% chance of getting the position, which is a much greater chance than I've had for any other job! But, I can't imagine the interviewers liking the other person more than me. Not that he's not as qualified to do the job or anything like that, but they just really seem to like me. So WOO!

AND! I'M SUPPOSED TO HEAR BACK ABOUT WHETHER I GOT THE JOB OR NOT TOMORROW!!! TOMORROW!!! I have to go hand-deliver these thank you notes now to wow the PRESIDENT/CEO and SENIOR VICE PRESIDENTS one more time! YEAH! WOO!

WOO!!

I MAY HAVE A REAL-WORLD JOB SOON!! WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

See my icon? That's how excited I am!

Since I'm sure you're all so excited to see pictures of my costume, I took a couple tonight! Enjoy!







I am so great sometimes.

I just got back from the interview and I'm really excited about it, so I'm going to post! It could be that I'm excited because I thought the interview went really well and that this job seems to fit me like something that fits really nicely, or it could be because I'm drinking liquid enthusiasm - coffee.

Either way, I feel great! I'm looking good, I'm feeling good, you guys are my favorite... What could be better? Except maybe another bathroom break. Excuse me for a second. False alarm. I know, I shouldn't say everything I think, but hey, at least I'm honest.

I'm thinking about calling into work. My glasses broke last night so I'm wearing my contacts, from two prescription changes ago. Let's just say I feel a headache coming on. Well, it's kind of here, but it's going to get worse. Especially staring at a computer screen all day! Oh man! I better call into work quick and get away from this computer so I can finish my refrigerator costume and work out!

BYE! I LOVE YOU GUYS!

I has applied to another job. It's the Item Information Technology/Program Support Assistant position for Teaching Family Homes. I had applied (and interviewed) for a secretary job for this same establishment back in May. I don't know the chances of being interviewed by the same company twice, even if it's for a different position, but I'm going for it.

And now I have to finish my refrigerator Halloween costume. I know, I make the best costumes.

But, alas, I did not get the City of Marquette IT Specialist Position. Am I sad about this? No, not really. I didn't expect to get it. But I am angry. Angry that they made me feel worthless and doubt myself. My theory of why I didn't get hired was because I'm "so young" and "unexperienced" that they were afraid and unwilling to give me a chance to prove myself. While I'm making it up to make myself feel better, this is probably at least 70% true.

After working out and showering, I felt a little weird. My stomach had been bothering me a bit all week, but this feeling was a bit different. I couldn't put a finger on it at first, and then I realized that I was feeling sadness. I hadn't felt sadness in awhile, so I had forgotten what it felt like. I've had 6 interviews this summer and the only job I could get was working at a gas station. (And the Photoshop job, which I'm officially starting Monday.) But it seems I'm not good enough to obtain a computer science job. Apparently working my ass off all though high school and college to procure the utmost information possible out of every class and staying at the top of the curve doesn't prove that I'll work harder than anyone else they'll hire, as well as know more. Winning 3rd place in a programming contest and creating websites for people in my free time doesn't show that I know how to program. What do these people want?!?

I'm starting to doubt my ability to do almost anything I thought I could. Computer science related, not generally like cooking or showering. I haven't done much with computers since I graduated because I don't have much of a chance. I want to get myself a server and start making websites for people on it. But I also want to do more programs in C++, C#, and Java. For that I could go online and look at all the programming contest questions and try to do those. I think I will. I really want to. For the having a server part, I need money. Which I absolutely do not have at the moment. I need to win the lottery. But I never play.

I really want to start my own business. Making websites would be easiest to get money with, but I also really want to program software and stuff like that. I suppose I could use Visual Studio and just make some software that someone might use sometime. :shrugs:

If you have any ideas of what I could do with an online business or words of encouragement, please share them. Thank you. I love you all.

All in all the City of Marquette interview went well. There were three guys and a female interviewing me, but I think I responded fairly well to the interrogation. Afterwards, I took a 4-question test, which, after looking up the answers online, I made a few mistakes on. But oh well. I sent a thank you letter just a little bit ago that should arrive Wednesday to swing their hiring vote towards me. :crosses fingers: Here's to winning!

What a terrible 10-day forecast!! Boo!

But hooray for staying in a nice house all weekend doing nothing but sitting on a large, comfortable couch watching movies and playing video games on a big screen HD tv. Oh, and letting the dogs out once in awhile. The joys of house sitting.

I jogged today!!! After the Big Bay Relay on May 16th (which was pretty much the worst day ever for me) I swore off running forever. Mostly because it was the hardest thing in the world for me and made me feel weak and insufficient. I knew, however, that running was and is pretty much the best exercise you can get. So after a lot of contemplation, I decided I'd ease back into it. Welp (yes, welp), I've been working out for 2 months and 9 days now and have gotten noticeably healthier and more fit. So today I decided to try jogging a little bit (2 minute spurts at 5.5 mph between fast walking so I don't push myself too hard right away and then never want to jog again again [yes, two agains]), and it was great! Besides the pain in my legs (which I'm sure will be gone after the next three or four jogs), it felt wonderful! It didn't hardly tire me out at all and it raised my spirits greatly! I can jog again! Hooray!!

Also, I got a job with a photography company doing Photoshop work on sports pictures! They say it'll be about 20 hours a week or so and that they may have other projects for me to work on which may give me another 20 or so hours a week for awhile! I may be able to quit the gas station job soon! Whatever happens with this job, I'm still going to look into getting myself my own server so I can start doing web work and maybe starting my own little business! Hooray!!

AND! It sounds like this lacrosse club idea is really going to happen!! I have a meeting with the rec sports guy next week! Hooray again!! SO IF YOU WANT TO PLAY LACROSSE AT THE DOME (WHETHER YOU'RE FEMALE OR MALE) LET ME KNOW AND I'LL LET YOU KNOW WHEN THE INTRODUCTORY MEETING IS TO GET TIMES SET UP FOR PRACTICING!! IT'S GOING TO BE CO-ED SO WE GET TWICE THE TURNOUT! WOO!

And I might also try to fit some BioLife in there somewhere. I could DEFINITELY use the cash.

to be the coach of NMU's Girls Lacrosse Club. No, no one asked me to. And no, there isn't a club formed yet. Yes, there have been attempts that failed miserably since the girls running it were stupid, slutty and irresponsible. (I don't think the slutty part really had much to do with it. Except that they may have just been trying to sleep with the male lacrosse players. So mayhaps it did.)

I have asked Katie Elliott if she wants to be assistant manager since she played with me back in the day (i.e. high school) but I haven't heard back yet. I haven't even asked anyone if I can start a club since I'm an alum, but I shall try.

COME PLAY WITH ME!!

In the following example I shall use "got" in the past, present, and future tenses all at once.

"I got syphilis from my roommate's whorefriend (also known as girlfriend)."

1.) It's past tense since I had gotten it a day previous to this one.
2.) It's present tense since I still have the syphilis.
3.) It's future tense since I will still have syphilis the next time you talk to me.

I hope you have enjoyed this lesson.

One-handed posting! Alright!

IS IT REALLY GOING TO BE 68 DEGREES NEXT MONDAY?!?! OMFG!! It's about time Mr. Weather took control over Mother Nature!

I have nothing else of interest to say. Except that old men shit their pants when you (if you're female) walk out of the men's restroom in a Holiday gas station.

Come on, Weather. Stop fuckin' around. It's June already. We've got some playin' to do.

Somehow I don't think I'm going to like working at Holiday. The people there are kinda rude. And so far 4 out of 5 people that I've worked with told me that I'll hate people within a month and start hating my job. But, I've come to the conclusion (after my 3 days of work) that coffee drinkers are much nicer people than smokers.

Also, this morning I have decided to go on a "crusade" of sorts. I, to prove how fucking dumb the "ideal woman" image is, have decided to become anorexic and lost 50 pounds. Now, those of you who have seen me know that I cannot afford to lost 50 pounds. 10-15 yes, but not 50. I shall become so thin and mal-nourished, I believe, that I won't have energy to move. And I shall do this to show the females out there with a normal body type how stupid they're being if they're trying to obtain a 115 pound goal. I'm not really going to do this, of course. But I definitely thought about it.

1.) Grape stuff, Faygo Red Pop, and Hawaiian Punch mixed together isn't as great as it sounds.
2.) I'm finally learning things at my internship!
3.) I've been bidding for jobs on Guru.com and I may get one which means $$!
4.) I HAVE A JOB WORKING AT THE HOLIDAY GAS STATION IN HARVEY AND IT'S GREAT!!